Because I’m a shut-in, Edinburgh to me is just my room, and all I do in there is work, eat and sleep. Nothing in the world can compare to eating and sleeping, oh the joy it used to bring me. But even these leisure activities have gradually turned into a boring daily routine, possibly because eating and sleeping were in fact a daily routine to begin with, but I no longer derive pleasure from it as much as I used to. So there is now no difference between work and leisure, and I’m just getting through each day for the sake of existing, it’s a wonderful feeling.